Thoughts invade my mind at times like a storm in my brain where there is no shelter. No place to hide. No place to keep out of the downpour. These thoughts keep me up at night and awake in the early hours of morning when the rest of the world is slumbering away. They race through my mind bounce off the wall inside creating havoc and destruction. I’ve tried to put them back in the box the spring from but the will not go away quietly. It takes hours to round up all these thoughts and pack them back away. Unfortunately, I haven’t trained my subconscious on how to keep them under lock and key as I’m sleeping and the next night they emerge again demanding my attention as the rest of the world is quiet. I’m considering a bigger lock for my box. I’m considering ways to keep these things buried for longer. The things I don’t want to deal with. The things I don’t want to think about. The things I don’t want to worry about. Because there are so many things. These thoughts they take me hostage and offer no reward, no ransom. I wrestle them with no end in sight not solutions to these problems. How does one stop the thoughts that keep coming and refuse to be quiet? I know they are getting the best of me and yet I’m powerless to confine them and restrain them.
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