Hands Full of Honeysuckle

I will never forget how your laughter was so contagious
Little blonde hair blue eyed girl with hands full of honeysuckle and mischief
"Can he come out to play today?"
Little brown hair boy with bright eyes full of curiosity and dreams
Running through the grass barefooted, turning cartwheels and jumping through mud puddles
Summers full of splashing in the pool, bike rides, trampoline wars, catching fireflies until our moms called us in for dinner
Imaginations untamed and wild with no limits
We explored the vastness between my house and yours
Discovering the treasures along the way
The Sun set on our Summer and September came
Autumn brought awkwardness, self doubt, broken bikes, empty trampolines, early nights and loneliness
Reality crashed, tossing our imaginations to the wind
brown hair boy grew into awkward teen unaware that the girl next door still wanted to be friends
blonde hair blue eyed girl turned into insecure teen unaware that the boy next door even cared
Winter kept us indoors with our doubts and worry, turning us to others that understood our new reality
Our time together was over, we seen each other in passing, never spoke, never hung out
We didn't have the words anymore, our imaginations destroyed as reality told us we could no longer be friends the way we had been
Teenagers didn't run through the sprinklers or spend the day imagining being from another world and helping out the fairy folk
Spring kept us apart, we didn't know how to fight the passage of time or the war going on inside
The years changed us still, after so much time had passed there was nothing left
The vastness between your house and mine became unknown territory again
Neither one of us knew how to cross the space inbetween and rectify a friendship long lost
You left for college without a goodbye, that little blue jeep packed with all your secrets
I left a year later with my little blue car filled with all my fears and ambitions
Our summers are forever gone now but not forgotten, never forgotten
Brown hair boy, awkward teen into beautiful man full of grace and strength
Blonde hair blue eyed girl, insecure teen into self confident inspired woman
I am no longer scared to run through the grass barefooted, splash in a mud puddle, or imagine I'm a fairy protecting the woodland creatures great and small
No longer do I hide behind my fears and insecurities, no longer am I scared of my own imagination
I want to run through the space between our houses and leap up the stairs to your door
and say "Can he come out to play today."
I want to explore the vastness of time that has past and discover what we missed out on while apart
I want to relearn how to stay outside all day until the night sets in with my best friend
However, time has taken too much from us and we lead different lives in separate states with new friends
I'm not even sure of who your are anymore because you will forever be the little brown hair boy that used to live across the road from a house that is no longer mine
I cherish these memories and relish in the intense desire to imagine all the possibilities of how we could have been
Every now and then I see those children we used to be playing dress up and running through the grass barefooted with heads full of wonder, eyes full of curiosity and dreams, hands full of honeysuckle and mischief
Every now and then, I think of you my long lost friend with a smile on my face and tug of nostalgia in my heart
And I will never forget how your laughter was so contagious

Elephant Eyes

Tongue Tied
Half Fried
Stop Light
Got me trippin'
Like that boy standing on the corner with the red balloon and elephant eyes
You never see me anymore
Eyes wide
Fists clenched
Shoes tight
Foreign smiles across tight rope balance act
I thought you would know
But you cant see me anymore
Invisible Invincible Inconceivable
I don't think it means what you think it means
Broken mind
First Time
Stop Light
Got me trippin'
Like that boy standing at the intersection with the big frown and elephant eyes
You can't see me now
I hope you don't see me
I never want you to see me